Life In Spite Of Itself
There are certainly perceived advantages to being an artist. The most common is that you get to set your own schedule, make a living doing what you love, and all the supposed perks that come with it.
The truth is, I can’t remember the last time that knowing which day of the week it was mattered. I can’t remember what it’s like to have a fixed schedule, with the exception of being on the road, and I no longer have any understanding of time. To me, 3 in the morning is no different than 3 in the afternoon when it comes to the force that pulls you towards an instrument in hopes of subduing the sounds in your head and giving life to them.
Two nights ago, after finishing watching a film, I was laying in the dark attempting to fall asleep. As is usually the case, it wasn’t working. But on this occasion it had nothing to do with insomnia, rather an internal battle regarding whether I should remain in bed or get up and deal with the words and melody evolving in my brain. It was 4 in the morning.
Obviously I wouldn’t be writing this entry had I not gotten up, picked up a guitar, and quickly penned the following song, recording it quietly on my iPhone so that I’d remember it the next day.
There is something about the loss of innocence and a career that runs you ragged that go hand in hand. You spend years waking up in different cities, sleeping on planes, eating when you can, and, in the midst of all of that, trying desperately to have normal personal relationships with people in your life. Sometimes, after a traumatic personal event, it becomes very difficult to remember the innocent sincerity of something as simple as a look, a smile focused towards you, especially if you have lost the belief that it truly exists given the realities of past situations. You want to believe, but you question it, you question the motivations of others, you question smiles.
In the end, after years of watching yourself being transformed into a zombie, you struggle to remember what the simple innocence of a smile with an agenda directed at you felt like. Your recollection of the face that produced the smile is gone, but the feeling remains, as if gifted your own personal Smithsonian.
Again, just a demo recorded at home that will disappear, as most things do, in a while. I didn’t think that I would write anything else for the next record, having completed it in my head. But as is often the case, I don’t have control over these things.
Life In Spite Of Itself.
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September 12th, 2008 at 1:34 pm
Oh Matt…this is so beautiful. A perfect end to a perfect day here in Italy…
…and don’t question smiles. Cherish them.
xx
September 12th, 2008 at 1:39 pm
Your creation made me miss Vancouver and Karen so much. We are all so lucky your throat survived.
September 12th, 2008 at 1:42 pm
No shit George.
September 12th, 2008 at 1:42 pm
holy shit this is awesome.
September 12th, 2008 at 1:45 pm
This is an incredible song. Are you still using Garage Band drums? They sound great.
Still the best vocalist I’ve ever heard.
September 12th, 2008 at 1:46 pm
Amazing and beautiful.
My son would not let me navigate anywhere else other than to keep it parked on the screen with only the scrollbar and the song playing. And if I could find the pictures I took of him one Friday night, hanging in his room, watching In A Coma dvd smiling from ear to ear while watching all the video’s, I would. But I can’t find them on my unorganized hard drive. (:()(
What a perfect 5th birthday present for my son today!!!!!!!!!! Thank you.. He loved it and so did I.
September 12th, 2008 at 1:53 pm
This is very beautiful; thanks for sharing. There’s something about hearing a new song for the first time that’s so… I don’t know how to explain it. I want to say ‘magical’ or ’special,’ but I don’t use those words, so. Fill in the blank with whatever you like.
(Our lives and life experiences probably couldn’t be more different, but I question smiles, too. When it comes to other people, I question everything. Not so healthy, but… healthy is not my strong suit. This is why I enjoy animals so much: you don’t have to second-guess them.)
September 12th, 2008 at 1:56 pm
Holy shit man… Put it on the record. Put all of them on the record!!
September 12th, 2008 at 1:57 pm
x
September 12th, 2008 at 2:05 pm
Love it! *smile*
September 12th, 2008 at 2:07 pm
I’ve heard your music for many years and admired the quality and power of your voice but never really paid attention to your lyrics until my daughter recommended I read your blog (which is quite recent and – by the way – very stimulating intellectually!). They come from deep inside and are extremely personal, which makes them that much more powerful.
Love this new song – it’s much softer than most of your work. I hope for you that one of these days, one of those smiles will make you pause… and you won’t forget.
September 12th, 2008 at 2:09 pm
Awesome.
September 12th, 2008 at 2:14 pm
Kewl
September 12th, 2008 at 2:29 pm
I really dig the orchestra.
September 12th, 2008 at 2:30 pm
Another beautiful song. Made me smile. Thanks for sharing your demos, as they are truly a delight to any day.
September 12th, 2008 at 2:34 pm
I sure hope that song makes it onto the record, it is beautiful Matt.
I feel very fortunate to have heard it today, and hope to hear it again!
That garage has a good band! LOL
September 12th, 2008 at 2:40 pm
Wow. You tapped into my veins and I don’t know how you do it but you captured the kind of theme of the past few days for me. Along with the obvious, Sept. 11 is also memorable for me in another way: on Sept. 10 2001 I got engaged. Happiest day of my life, full of joy and optimism and love and then the next day when we were going to share our news, of course we awoke to the world ending. But I remember the feeling of that day, and despite the horror, I was so thankful to be with my man, protected, beginning my life with my true love. Fast forward 7 years and I am alone, true love left me 8 mos ago–dumped me with everything–and I am in the midst of selling my home. I feel very alone, small and scared. And I too question smiles, because I know their power and the depth of pain that can result after the joy. But I remember how real I felt it at the time. This one really hit a nerve, Matt. Beautiful and painful.
September 12th, 2008 at 2:52 pm
Sometimes the best songs are the ones that just flow from straight from your mind and right onto whatever medium that will best express its energy.
Not sure how long you thought of this one before it wanted to come out or if this was almost spontaneous, but either way- it gave me goosebumps and it made me remember things from my past too..
Beyond the career you have and beyond your past experiences, you still always have choices. You could choose to put more structure into your life if you desired it to be there.
It is obvious you lost pieces that made your being and that you lack trust in others. Given what you have gone through, that is so natural..There is no set timeline you can put on a broken heart, or when it will heal. It isn’t something you can force back together, but at some point you have to try and make the decision to tear down the walls you have built around your heart and let a trust begin to germinate.
You owe that to yourself my friend.
It’s amazing what we end up forgetting and how time becomes so predictable that one day just melts into the next without definition. The one thing, as you expressed in your song, was how certain gestures made us feel. The emotions that are produced from our actions, or the actions of others, are forever burned into our conscience. The way you felt when that person smiled at you… It’s a beautiful thing, but made me feel sad.
Great song, I hope this in fact makes it onto the record:)
September 12th, 2008 at 2:53 pm
very nice
September 12th, 2008 at 3:06 pm
Sounds awesome.
September 12th, 2008 at 3:11 pm
I’m glad you made the choice to get up.
Thanks for sharing, it sounds great like always Matt :)
September 12th, 2008 at 3:14 pm
I don’t think innocence is lost, it gets changed into something else. In your case I’d say wisdom and understanding Matt.
That song is soaring.
September 12th, 2008 at 3:15 pm
One nice spur of the moment demo, and I’m happy to hear that it has a possibility to make it onto the new album.
If I read that right.
September 12th, 2008 at 3:28 pm
This song made me feel so sad =(
September 12th, 2008 at 3:30 pm
It must be nice to have those kinds of dreams. Last night I dreamed I was riding a big Harley Davidson down the highway (I am not a biker at all - last time was a crash after an Octoberfest evening many years ago, a moped, no clothes except boxer shorts, and a lot of beer). Anway in the dream I’m driving down the highway and hit the throtle and it takes off at the same time I’m going down a huge hill and I’m afraid to hit the brakes because it’s starting to shake. I’m doing 260km/hr in 100/km zone. I get pulled over and I woke up while trying to explain to my wife (who is dressed as a police officer) why I was 160km/hr over the speed limit.
I’m totally afraid to know what Freud would have made of that.
Thanks for the demo - beautiful.
September 12th, 2008 at 3:36 pm
Beautiful and nothing less. I really needed this - it’s been a long week.
Thanks Matt!
September 12th, 2008 at 3:40 pm
delurking to also ask for this on the album.
one of the most beautiful things i’ve heard all week.
September 12th, 2008 at 3:47 pm
I’m green… with envy…
no worries though… its a good kind of envy…
the kind that buys the beers…
September 12th, 2008 at 3:57 pm
Thats a demo? Sounds pretty polished to me.
September 12th, 2008 at 4:00 pm
[quote comment="64885"]It must be nice to have those kinds of dreams. Last night I dreamed I was riding a big Harley Davidson down the highway (I am not a biker at all - last time was a crash after an Octoberfest evening many years ago, a moped, no clothes except boxer shorts, and a lot of beer). Anway in the dream I’m driving down the highway and hit the throtle and it takes off at the same time I’m going down a huge hill and I’m afraid to hit the brakes because it’s starting to shake. I’m doing 260km/hr in 100/km zone. I get pulled over and I woke up while trying to explain to my wife (who is dressed as a police officer) why I was 160km/hr over the speed limit.
I’m totally afraid to know what Freud would have made of that.
Thanks for the demo - beautiful.[/quote]
Thank you Brian for this, I needed the laugh! Man, that dream is rich with analytical possibilities! And the Oktoberfest story is pretty good too!
September 12th, 2008 at 4:10 pm
Is so sad but in a hopeful way- if that makes sense. I love the chorus.
It’s wonderful.
September 12th, 2008 at 4:11 pm
it would make a beautiful closing track
September 12th, 2008 at 4:14 pm
Moving. I really like this one. Thanks! Hope to hear it on the next album.
September 12th, 2008 at 4:17 pm
Matt, I really wish I could kiss and hold your heart and wrap it up in a warm blanket until it didn’t hurt anymore, I really and truly do.
Don’t be envious of the scheduled, predictable life. I always thought that I’d give anything for the gift of art, to be able to have music, writing, imagery as an outlet for all the garbage in my head and the pain in my heart. But unfortunately, I haven’t a creative bone in my body, which is why I’ve wound up in IT. So I’m stuck in an office 9-5 day after day, planning my days in 30 minute segments, writing star schema data models and high-level design documents as if they actually mattered, bottling up my feelings and pushing them deeper and deeper down into my gut until it burns like fire. Living a scheduled and predictable Life in Spite of Itself. So what side grows the greener grass?
I can certainly relate to questioning the smiles. One day, when you are ready, you will stop. I’m as sure of that as I am that I will too. So until then you know that at least there are some smiles you can always trust. Like the smiles you put on the faces of your niece and nephew when you touch their hearts. And your pets when you love and care for them. And your fans when you inspire us. Some smiles are for real… like, for example, this one –> :)
September 12th, 2008 at 4:18 pm
P.S. The song is beautiful, thank you.
September 12th, 2008 at 4:19 pm
*smiles*
Great song
September 12th, 2008 at 4:21 pm
[quote comment="64875"]Wow. You tapped into my veins and I don’t know how you do it but you captured the kind of theme of the past few days for me. Along with the obvious, Sept. 11 is also memorable for me in another way: on Sept. 10 2001 I got engaged. Happiest day of my life, full of joy and optimism and love and then the next day when we were going to share our news, of course we awoke to the world ending. But I remember the feeling of that day, and despite the horror, I was so thankful to be with my man, protected, beginning my life with my true love. Fast forward 7 years and I am alone, true love left me 8 mos ago–dumped me with everything–and I am in the midst of selling my home. I feel very alone, small and scared. And I too question smiles, because I know their power and the depth of pain that can result after the joy. But I remember how real I felt it at the time. This one really hit a nerve, Matt. Beautiful and painful.[/quote]
Susan, I wish I could give you a hug. I’m in almost the exact situation myself. You’re never alone.
September 12th, 2008 at 4:27 pm
Jesus transformed into a zombie.
September 12th, 2008 at 4:53 pm
This song is beautiful, Matt. It’s by far my favourite out of the last four or five that you’ve demoed here for us. Thanks for sharing. :-)
September 12th, 2008 at 5:00 pm
ok first of all, awesome song. its amazing what you think of at 4am. i have written some of my best stuff at that time, as i’m laying there trying to sleep. except for me i am on a fixed schedule so i go through my days in a half stupor.
second: reading your blogs the past 2 years, and listening to others talk about marriage and love, is there such thing as true love?
It always seems that everyone has had a relationship end badly, do relationships ever work out in the end?
September 12th, 2008 at 5:02 pm
I’m trying to find the right words to say as tears stream down my face while listening to this over and over….
Being completely blindsided and basically crumpled up and tossed in the trash earlier this week by someone I believed and trusted and cherished - these lyrics really pierce my heart right now. It’s so beautiful, this song….but at this moment, very very sad. I can’t stop listening to it.
September 12th, 2008 at 5:03 pm
Beautiful song Matt. Thank you very much for sharing this with us.
September 12th, 2008 at 5:03 pm
Just beautiful and at the same time heart wrenching. The lyrics certainly resonant with me. Thanks for the listen, Matt. Hope it makes it onto the new record.
September 12th, 2008 at 5:10 pm
Smiles with agendas? Even good ones, the idea makes me sad…though I guess it’s open season if it’s on the menu at McDonald’s.
I sure miss the luxury of the freedom to keep the kind of schedule you keep.
Strange day around here…don’t know how the song made me feel, but I like it.
September 12th, 2008 at 5:13 pm
it’s a great demo Matt, it really is. If you tack this onto the rest of Vancouver, it’d be even more complete. If that makes sense.
September 12th, 2008 at 5:21 pm
Thanks for sharing!
:)
September 12th, 2008 at 5:34 pm
I’m not sure that it’s any better waking up in the same city to work the same job that doesn’t pay nearly enough financially or emotionally, feeling stuck in an awful routine that you wish you could break but just can’t, feeling stuck inside your head with nothing to make it go away. No one smiles because no one really notices you.. or you don’t notice them smile.
Needless to say, this fixed schedule and depressing lifestyle has also turned me into a zombie.
Life kind of just sucks for most of us, I guess, whether you’re a rockstar or someone working an fulfilling job, devoid of dreams at twenty years old.
Sorry, that sounds really depressing. I’m really not trying to bring anyone down (apparently I do that all the time) I guess I’m just trying to say that I think most of us are in the same boat, trying to get some place good but not really being able to do so.
September 12th, 2008 at 5:38 pm
I guess that should say unfulfilling.. anyway.. very nice song as well.
September 12th, 2008 at 5:44 pm
Smooth, soft, flowing… words that come to mind about it. I really liked it.
September 12th, 2008 at 6:17 pm
Beautiful, Matt … the chorus is especially uplifting.
Thank you for sharing the thought process behind the lyrics, too. I don’t question smiles specifically, but I do question friendliness and warmth … I never know when people are being sincere or just polite, so most of the time I try not to care. When I *know* someone is being genuine, though, it really is a ray of sunshine. :)
I have a feeling I’m going to be running around singing, “So you hoooold ooooonto it …” now.
September 12th, 2008 at 6:27 pm
Beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
September 12th, 2008 at 6:30 pm
Beautiful.
Now the guilt that came with opting to eat a bowl of ravioli in front of my computer after work instead of doing my nightly bike ride by the river is gone. I obviously made the right choice and you are (obviously) amazing.
Thanks for making an awful day better.
September 12th, 2008 at 7:00 pm
[quote comment="64911"]I’m not sure that it’s any better waking up in the same city to work the same job that doesn’t pay nearly enough financially or emotionally, feeling stuck in an awful routine that you wish you could break but just can’t, feeling stuck inside your head with nothing to make it go away. No one smiles because no one really notices you.. or you don’t notice them smile.
Needless to say, this fixed schedule and depressing lifestyle has also turned me into a zombie.
Life kind of just sucks for most of us, I guess, whether you’re a rockstar or someone working an fulfilling job, devoid of dreams at twenty years old.
Sorry, that sounds really depressing. I’m really not trying to bring anyone down (apparently I do that all the time) I guess I’m just trying to say that I think most of us are in the same boat, trying to get some place good but not really being able to do so.[/quote]
No, not depressing, just true. Some of us feel like we’re barely treading water sometimes, just trying to keep our heads above water. If you find out how to get to that good place, let me know :)
September 12th, 2008 at 7:20 pm
There are many sacrifices made so the world can become just a little bit brighter. Your sacrifices, both an artist and a person, Matthew are greatly admired as my world is glowing right now.
Hearing your voice sing such beautiful melodies brings on such an innate joy within my soul. Thank you for sharing your music and for doing what you do.
~
September 12th, 2008 at 7:29 pm
Wow…just…awesome…again.
KET: holy shit you say a lot of shit I either relate to, agree with or just find really interesting.
September 12th, 2008 at 7:32 pm
Oh, and I quite rudely forgot to say thank you to Matt for sharing.
Thanks! :)
September 12th, 2008 at 8:25 pm
I am so terribly saddened that I missed this demo :(
But from what appears written here, it sounds beautiful nonetheless and this does not surprise me
As for the genuineness of the smiles, we all have to take leaps in life … some lead us to hurt and others lead us to warmth … go towards the warmth because its worth it when you find it …(or at least this is what I choose to believe)
If we don’t have this to aspire to, what do we really have?
September 12th, 2008 at 8:40 pm
Beautiful song Matt. Thank you for sharing.
I was just talking to a friend yesterday day about a weird experience I had many years ago when I came an inch away from crashing into a tree that had fallen in the middle of the road. It was one of those weird split second see your whole life in front of your eyes moment. And for some reason the two things that I vividly remember desperately wanting to live for was to see the color of the sky and to feel the earth between my toes. It seems odd that those simple things were the two standouts that kept me going. But maybe in the end, it is that simple.
Keep up the good work and thanks for the demos as always.
September 12th, 2008 at 8:57 pm
I must say, I’ve listened to it at least 10 times now and am completely WOW’D by it. It sort of reminds me of Volcanoes, which I instantly fell in love with as well. I think I like this one even more.
“We’re going home
but it ain’t no different at all
It’s just another place, baby, where I don’t sleep”
(or something like that?)
This one really hit home.
(And I have to echo what Freens said about KET…I often feel that way about her comments too. She says, perfectly, what I stumble to try and say)
September 12th, 2008 at 9:04 pm
sounds absolutely amazing, i love it when a song just comes to you. really looking forward to the new album. so will this show up on the vancouver or is it just a treat for those who heard it today?
September 12th, 2008 at 10:06 pm
Matt, I just gotta say, again, what an absolute gem this is. I’ve been listening to it over and over and then took a break. Came back to it and it was even better. Thank you, so much, for this gift (even though it makes me cry…go figure!).
And to Jenny in Toronto, thanks so much for the virtual hug! And I will extend it to Angela, who is going through something similar by the sounds of it. It never ceases to surprise me that when I feel most alone and insignificant, just at the end of my fingers there are so many others who feel the same way, who are going through the same things. If we all hang on to each other, maybe we can make a human “raft” and keep ourselves afloat. Thankyou Matt et al for this site, that brings people like us together. Okay, I’m getting mushy, time to read some political stuff and go back to being cynical….
September 12th, 2008 at 10:29 pm
I like this.
September 12th, 2008 at 10:36 pm
Susan- We truly are kindred spirits. I’m trying to sell the house as well. All while he’s off with a new life and a new girlfriend. I’m left to pick up what is leftover from our failed marriage. I have to agree that even when we do get our lowest it’s nice to know that there are others who are going through something similar. I’m all for a raft, we can all keep each other afloat.
Matthew Good this made my day. I had a rough one today and tomorrow is going to prove to be as anxiety ridden as today was depressing. So having something to listen to here really made my day special. As always, it sounds amazing. Thank you.
September 12th, 2008 at 11:13 pm
Great Song. As always.
Rock Star or not, many struggle with deciphering genuine people from the one’s with an Agenda, but I imagine fame amplifies the situation ten fold. I know I can be with a room full of people or just one I care for, and still feel quite alone. It’s a feeling that’s tough to handle, especially at night, but it passes and I know that being creative at that moment does help to pass the time until the feeling changes.
I’m glad you get to do that, and it still brings you some peace.
September 12th, 2008 at 11:34 pm
[quote comment="64942"]Great Song. As always.
I know I can be with a room full of people or just one I care for, and still feel quite alone. ….especially at night…..[/quote]
So true, I say that all of the time. You can be completely surrounded in a group of people, those who love you, or simply feel lost within a crowd, and just feel so completely alone.
Sometimes being alone is so comforting and peaceful. That’s what they say solitude is, or it can be complete agony…That’s what they call loneliness…
September 12th, 2008 at 11:37 pm
i often wonder why an instantainious thought compiled into word and melody is considered a demo..a demo of what?? (pardon my ignorance or low “iq”ness) it was a thought or compilation of thoughts that obviously mean a great deal in your life right now…i may not be as smart as the rest of you but i more than understand what you mean about second guessing anothers motive behind a smile or kind gesture…especially if you have been hurt before and are still licking open wounds…but that is life, you gate yourself up as a sort of defense mechanism..that is good for a spell, it gives you time to take stock of what has happened, what to continue doing, what never to do again…but to quote doug, “your innocence gets changed into something else” those words are so true..we experience things in this life which wisen us up in certain areas, areas which will make a difference in the path we are meant to follow..the fact that you are still able to recall the comforting feeling ones smile left you with shows you are still capable of feeling and open to recieving love and acceptance from one who is meant to travel the rest of this long, strange road with you…it is just difficult to pinpoint whom that person is. maybe you are not meant to know until your paths cross…”life in spite of itself” is a window showcasing what you feel now, at the age you are now, what you have learned at this point. we will never cease learning anything until we breathe our last breath…don’t give up hope, because if nothing else, hope is a thread we can cling to because no one knows for sure what lays at the end of that thread…and we are not meant to know until it happens. sometimes it helps us claw forward to tomorrow, not knowing what is in store. it may be horrific, but it may be the best thing to ever happen…no one knows for sure. your lyrics speak volumes, it is who you are, and it is what you feel..the fact you can feel should say something. please put this beautiful song on your ‘vancouver’ album, your music represents all that you stand for, and after a blog like this and a song such as this, it would be such a waste not to share your wisdom and insight…you are not only helping yourself, but many others who are like you and searching for the same thing you are; you are the voice for not only yourself, but for those who feel the same way and cannot put words or a melody to their inner battles.
September 12th, 2008 at 11:46 pm
When you feel vulnerable, you exploit the solid inborn characteristics that you know will act as your shield from the world. you present what you know best, what cannot fail you. in your case matt it’s your music and your involvement in worldly affairs and history. (therefore your mind) and you hide the other, more fragile aspects of your character from the world and those wanting to get close.
you use what is safe, to keep what is fragile protected.
eventually, with time, effort, self-reflection, your sense of self develops again and you are slowly able to let people in again and not worry so much if your intuition fails you once in awhile and you get burnt. it’ll never again feel like the first time.
pain builds character and strength.
don’t give up, and give it time.
September 13th, 2008 at 12:02 am
how the hell is this simply a demo for you?
don’t throw it away, let it grow let it grow!
if you don’t mind my asking, what kinds of
software and hardware do you use to put
something like this together in a day.
besides garageband.
(mics,interfaces,preamps,beat software)
stay gold matt.
September 13th, 2008 at 12:18 am
I never surround myself with people anymore. A very long, abusive relationship, a lot of death and hardship and I don’t even see the smiles anymore. I don’t see them so there’s no questioning involved. There’s nothing.
Ahh. This is my Mom’s birthday and it’s harder than I thought. But somehow, I “feel” smiles here…real, genuine smiles and extended hands. I like it here. I’m tired, g’night. You people are beautiful people.
September 13th, 2008 at 12:40 am
[quote comment="64929"]I am so terribly saddened that I missed this demo :(
[/quote]
The link is still there, just below the last line in Matt’s entry. Click the ‘Life in spite of Itself’.
September 13th, 2008 at 6:18 am
[quote comment="64944"][quote comment="64942"]Great Song. As always.
I know I can be with a room full of people or just one I care for, and still feel quite alone. ….especially at night…..[/quote]
So true, I say that all of the time. You can be completely surrounded in a group of people, those who love you, or simply feel lost within a crowd, and just feel so completely alone.
Sometimes being alone is so comforting and peaceful. That’s what they say solitude is, or it can be complete agony…That’s what they call loneliness…[/quote]
To me there’s no emptier feeling than being with someone and feeling totally alone. Be it a relationship with someone who’s emotionally unavailable, or a new relationship that your trying to build but your heart still belongs to the one you can’t have. So now I prefer to spend most of my time alone with my dog. At least with him there’s no pressure.
September 13th, 2008 at 7:50 am
[quote comment="64923"]
KET: holy shit you say a lot of shit I either relate to, agree with or just find really interesting.[/quote]
Thank you! I had quite the self-pitying little night last night, so this actually means more to me than you would think. :)
(Thanks Deb too! <3 I can only imagine how tough your mom’s birthday is. Hope you got some peace.)
September 13th, 2008 at 8:32 am
The first thing that came to my mind after I read your entry is that I wish you could be on that trip with your father right now.
September 13th, 2008 at 9:15 am
interesting effect….the lines through all the comments (or is it only I who can see them?).
I know most of these comments were meant for Matt, but I take them to heart too (the relationship stuff, not the music stuff). There is much wisdom and compassion here. Thank you beautiful souls.
September 13th, 2008 at 9:26 am
Missed it… as always :((
September 13th, 2008 at 9:26 am
A demo means that it’s not the final version of the recording is all.
September 13th, 2008 at 10:24 am
awesome song….looking fwd to the new album, and hopefully the acoustic release is still a possibility.
September 13th, 2008 at 12:36 pm
Matt, your dilemas with sleep, time and the days of the week sound an awful lot like the same problems shift workers have. Personally I love shift work, I can go out on a Tuesday afternoon and get everything done and not get aggrivated with people.
Cheers!
September 13th, 2008 at 7:30 pm
Awww, I missed it. Anybody willing to email me a copy. I’m new here so I hope that’s okay to ask. From what everybody is saying, its sounds amazing.
Actually, I headed to Vancouver tomorrow to enjoy one last (probably) day of summer biking around the seawall - it sure would be cool to listen to this on the way - yep, I am begging.
If it’s okay to share, I’ll post my email or if you know a better way. . . let me know. Thanks!
September 13th, 2008 at 8:22 pm
I dont know where this song is?
Structure is good. Maybe you should try something random like getting a job at McDonald’s or as a check out guy at a grocery store for a while. It could be extremely gratifying and grounding to see life from that perspective for a while, im not joking. i did this after grad school for a few months.